Skrain Bodak (skrain_bodak) wrote,
Skrain Bodak

my heart finally broke.....

it's strange saying that but it's the best I could come up with for a subject title even though my heart has been breaking this past week or so...

I was going to write this in poetic form but that would have to be later. Prose is all I have time for at the moment. So without further ado....

Last night I decided I was going to finish catching up on my reading for my classes and I went in my room. I forgot what time it was...probably 10 PM or after. Mom was still in the living room and I think she was watching AP or Discovery...80% of the time these days she's usually watching one of those if there isn't anything else on Lifetime or whatever or channel surfing. I had the door shut and my old clock radio playing K-HITS which is one of those pop stations (I know some of you would be going "boo-hiss!!! pop, ewww!!")

So anyway....and mela_angel will tell you that I'm speaking the truth...that I'm notorious for not making my bed and having books just about bed was undone so I was making my bed so I can read and I was going to just lay on the bed and read instead of taking the books in my chair out and sitting at the desk to read.

Instead, after I made my bed, I took the afghan that Angel made for me and I cuddled with it, and started thinking of all the good times flashing before my eyes and all the times she talked about cuddling with her "Al Pillow" and then....

I started to cry. I cried uncontrollably. I cried so much that I took off my glasses and folded them up and laid them on the bed next to me...I cried and sobbed for just about 10 minutes if not more with that afghan in my arms held tight but gentle.

I have to go...I think I might be in a little trouble. Mom's here but she's not in the hall outside the lab. That's all that happened last night though...
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