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I know this seems leading or whatever it is called but for the life of me, I never seem to word a poll like this any different.

Other than to about 2 people, I don't think I would want to share the reason why this poll is here....and NO it is not about who most of you think it is about.

Poll #435389 Emotionally Draining?

Do you think I'm emotionally draining?


Poll #435390 Any reason why you gave your answer?

Any reason why you gave your answer?


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Feb. 11th, 2005 01:20 am (UTC)
I don't get how a person can be emotionally draining. Explain, please. It's not like you angst every hour of every day. Everyone has times when they feel down. Geez.
Feb. 11th, 2005 01:42 am (UTC)
You're just gonna sit there and do nothing as usual. Go out and find something to do! ><;; Seriously...if you're so depressed and unhappy with your life DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!! Geez...-_-
Feb. 11th, 2005 01:51 am (UTC)
what does that have to do with it?
I am doing something...I am trying to move on from certain things...

but yet now I've been described...or actually my correspondence has been...labled as emotionally draining.

How am I supposed to exercise what I have learned recently when I am so..."draining"??? How can I go slow and start out as friends with someone if I am "emotionally draining"? If it's because of the "soulmates are a myth" thing and that knowlege that it is is sinking into my "vibes" or whatever then screw love anyway....why bother then finding someoen that would give me affection and shares things in common when I have to believe something that is false?
Feb. 11th, 2005 02:16 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
I already told you. There are people out there who can help people who are "draining". You don't have to sit there and dwell on it. Go out and do something to take your mind off of it. That's your problem. You dwell so much on negative things that it's affecting your personal life and relationships. THAT'S probably why you can't find anyone. No one wants to hear all that negative stuff all the time.

And it's not false, cuz you know other people have their soulmates. You just haven't found yours yet. Just because you haven't found one doesn't mean it isn't there.
Feb. 11th, 2005 02:29 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
Let's see....

the many ways that I'm not good enough for *ahem* you know who....

then (even if I might not have mentioned her to you) there's recently the deal about not much hope with Cheryl since she had told me that the relationship has been drifting apart and how she believes that she's too old for me and that her daughter at least would want the man to be older and Cheryl's 41....and that Cheryl finally realizes that there's only about 2 things we have in common....

and this was only over the past year...year and a half...not counting the 13 years before which included my one year each of dating "Chicken" and "Idiot" (Nhu Ly and Angela Bradshaw to remind ya...)

Throw my..."mistake" if one could call it so discreetly...into the picture and there really isn't any such thing...if I have one still out there, I would have been wise enough to not have had the "mistake" and kept it despite what I felt about it.

I mean screw overcompensating because I don't have "it"....forget a Grand Canyon honeymoon...I'm not deluding myself...

and unlike the last time when I said "If God sends me someone who's..., then I'm gonna run in the opposite direction," this time I will do it...

except this time I know that God doesn't have anyone set aside for anyone, He may give his blessing for whoever we choose but He just doesn't make someone as a match for someone else. Anyway if it is His plan to bless it if a Mexican gal is interested in me....then I'll run away, really, no changing mind. If my resolve ever weakens, I'll just refuse to have any sort of children. I don't deserve any anyway.

Feb. 11th, 2005 02:49 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
You can't refuse what God has planned out for you. If someone comes to you and it ends up not being the right one, then that OBVIOUSLY wasn't the one God wanted you to be with. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be. If it's not, then it's not. If you keep focusing on old relationships that failed then you're never going to get anywhere. You have to be more positive.
Feb. 11th, 2005 02:50 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
P.S. God does in fact send soulmates your way, if you 1- pray for them 2- it's in His will. God sent Mike to me. I know it was destiny.
Feb. 11th, 2005 03:02 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
I don't have anything very special left...it doesn't matter if I have a "secondary"...it doesn't matter if I have Divine Intervention to forget in a matter that I have had my first time...the fact is that I laready had it and worse...that I had it and haven't even been married. In fact I envy all that much more now those people I know that have married and been married and AFAIK (am I even gonna ask??? no way) has had their first...and had their oldest kid. I envy those in my graduating class that have been married once, and had their first time, divorced and married another...at least they got married as well while....

Then, this is just another way I wouldn't have been satisfied because before, I thought I was a freak, and now I feel like a freak now that I have done it....and I guess that even if things had gone better, I would still feel odd since "most everyone" has been or is younger when marrying the first time or....

labels suck....
Feb. 11th, 2005 03:41 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
You act is if you're the only person in the world that regrets losing their virginity when they did, and that God doesn't forgive people who ask for it. Maybe God is just waiting for you to stop accepting whatever the devil has to say about you so He can work his blessings on you. God's not gonna do His thing unless you have faith that He will. Otherwise, it's your own fault.
Feb. 11th, 2005 03:45 am (UTC)
Re: what does that have to do with it?
Why can't you just forget it and move on with your life? Stop living in the past because you can't go back to it. Stop acting like you're the only person in the world who's sorry they gave up their virginity to some prick. Stop acting like you're the only person in the world with a disorder that's hard to function with. MOVE ON. DO SOMETHING. HELP YOURSELF.
Feb. 11th, 2005 04:03 am (UTC)
Every Life Has Purpose
Believe it or no...every life God created bears purpose. Though it may not be visible for a long time, it becomes clear when the person is ready to see it, as well as come to be ready to perform it.

One of the first steps into moving on and letting go, is to realize that you, as a person are not entirely at fault for every situation. For more often than not it takes two to tango. Also that there is not one sin/wrongly done action of which God cannot forgive, just need to find it within yourself to forgive not only those who have wronged you, but yourself as well.


Feb. 11th, 2005 04:23 am (UTC)
I agree with the comments.

You need to move on. Stop dwelling on what is already done. You're depending on yourself to fix everything. You can't. Only God can do it.

You aren't the only one who gave their virginity to someone and regret it. Quit thinking like that and become proactive. Promote knowledge about the consequences of losing the V-card to teens. Anything positive.

That's your problem. Excessive dwelling. Stop it. Forget about soul mates. Forget about how you "lost" everything. Forget about the women you still talk about. If you still talk to them, block them. Do WHATEVER you need to do to get rid of your negative triggers. You haven't lost everything. You have God, your health and a house & food. Other people aren't so lucky.

I know I've told you this countless times so this is going to be my last time commenting the same thing that I've said so many times via IMs. If you aren't going to listen and act, what's the point in me saying this over and over again?

What's the point honestly?

Get over it and move on.
Feb. 11th, 2005 04:46 pm (UTC)
i'll leave a comment since i took the poll. i put YES b/c of all of the above dramatic replies to comments you put. ^^ hope that explains more
Feb. 11th, 2005 05:22 pm (UTC)

I don't know much of why you are feeling this way. But remember that all sin is the same in God's eyes; in that light, He is able to forgive everything. If you are humble enough to ask, He will give you His forgiveness. And help you move on.

Feb. 12th, 2005 01:10 pm (UTC)
Konnichiwa. Gomen nasai for the lack of comments. ^.^;;; And because I haven't been here lately, I'm not sure what's going on, but it seems like you could use a hug right now. *hugs* Ja.
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