It almost feels like a Voices of a Distant Star situation here.
What if she doesn't love me anymore? What if she never did? No phone call at all. I know I should be more confident than I was the time before. I mean I do remember all the times when I posted filtered entries whenever I was emailed messages that had what I thought was bad news and I went to posting that I was afraid of a breakup and here I am again with someone else and this is the first time it happened in this one, but in a different way.
I'm scared, I admit it I'm scared...I'm scared something happened to her (worst of all) or that she's decided to see someone else and didn't tell me and it would serve me right.
I mean I did cheat a different lifetime ago...it would serve me right if I would be the one being cheated on this time.
I really hate this.
She should have called or at least answered the phone last night since it was Friday I mean there's no school on Saturday....